Monday, October 24, 2011


Well, I didn't do it. I needed to lose 2.6 lbs this week to hit my 10% goal, but it didn't happen. Not even close. Despite the fact that I was where I needed to be on Saturday (granted, that was with my clothes off) I only lost one pound this week. It's frustrating because I did everything right. I exercised 5 days and earned 19 activity points, and didn't eat any of them. I also purposely avoided going out to watch football yesterday, and had 23 unused weekly bonus points. You would think that would add up to a nice loss for me, but nope.

The only thing I can think of is that lifting weights might be impacting my results on the scale, specifically lifting on Mondays, which are my weigh-in days. I've tried to do research on that, and most sites say that it doesn't matter. I've found a few sources though that say muscles hold onto water right after lifting as they work to repair themselves. So maybe that's it? I don't really want to switch from my Monday/Wednesday/Friday lifting routine, but if I have another disappointing weigh-in next week, I might have to.

After today, my next goal was to reach 20 lbs (down 2 lbs more) by November 7, two weeks from today. So with today's failure I'm looking at needing to lose 3.6 lbs in two weeks in order to get back on track. That's going to be tricky, if my progress as of late is any indication. Especially because on November 5 some friends and I are going tailgating at a college football game and even if we do try to make things WW friendly, I'm sure that will be a points-heavy day.

Blah. I'm just in such a gloomy mood now after going to WW. I'm so disappointed and quite honestly I just want to give up. I want to forget about portion sizes and number of points. I want to dive bomb into a tub of frosting and never come out. I won't, of course, because I know that overall I just need to keep pushing through and it'll all be worth it, but right now it just sucks.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Stupid Scales

I had a pretty good week with WW last week - as of Saturday morning, I still had 35 weekly points left, along with 13 activity points I'd earned from exercising 4 days during the week. I restarted ChaLean Extreme on Monday, so I wasn't quite sure how my body would react to reintroducing weight lifting into my routine. I know that long term, weight lifting is hugely beneficial to weight loss, but sometimes you can show a gain at first and I was nervous about it. So I was glad to see that when I weighed myself for my Biggest Loser weigh-in on Saturday, I was down 1.2 lbs. I proceeded to use all the rest of my weekly points and a few of my activity points over the rest of the weekend, but still, I was within the points that I had.

This morning before I left for work, I weighed myself wearing the clothes I would have on for WW. Still down 1.2 lbs. Awesome! I got to WW today feeling pretty hopeful. I stepped on the scale and was told I lost 0.4 lbs. WTF? Seriously? It would have been one thing to lose 0.4 if I had been expecting it. After having 30 points of beer yesterday, I would almost have deserved it! But having expected a better number, I'm feeling really disappointed. Plus, now that means I need to lose 2.6 lbs by next Monday in order to hit 10% on that date like I planned. It's doable, I know, because I've done it before, but not for over a month. My body doesn't seem to want to let go of weight that quickly anymore. I'm definitely going to give it my best effort, but it's a little more daunting than I would like! Blah.

On a more positive note, I had two non-scale victories last week. First, I discovered I was able to put my biggest pair of jeans on and off without unbuttoning/unzipping them. Yay! I don't feel like I look any different, but that's proof that I'm losing weight even if I don't feel it. Second, I saw a friend yesterday who I haven't seen in a while, maybe since late July. So he had no idea I was doing WW. He noticed my weight loss and that made my day. I've had other people tell me that they notice I lost weight, but they all know that I'm doing WW so I wonder how much of it is just them being encouraging. Which I appreciate, don't get me wrong, but somehow it means more coming from somehow who hasn't seen me in some time and who doesn't have a clue I've been working away at this.

I just need to focus on those things and less on the number on the scale, though that's easier said than done!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Just made it!

On my schedule of mini goals, I had decided that I wanted to reach 15 pounds by this week. Well, I did it! I needed to lose 1.8 lbs this week in order to hit the goal and I lost EXACTLY 1.8 lbs! Yay! Here's the updated schedule:

My Mini Goals:
10 lbs. by September 12  Done, on schedule!
15 lbs. by October 10  Done, on schedule!
18 lbs. (my 10% goal) by October 24
20 lbs. by November 7
25 lbs. by December 5
28 lbs. (my 15% goal) by December 19
30 lbs. by January 2
35 lbs. by January 30
38 lbs. (my 20% goal) by February 20
40 lbs. by March 5
45 lbs. by March 26
47 lbs. (my 25% goal) by April 9
50 lbs. by April 23 - GOAL WEIGHT!!

So now I've got two weeks to lose three more pounds and reach the next goal. And with that 10% goal I get my WW keychain! I don't know why I'm so excited for that silly keychain, but I am. I'd LOVE to get it by next week, but I don't know how realistic that is, so I won't be disappointed if it takes me two weeks to do it.

I'm also excited because I'm spreading the WW enthusiasm among my friends, family, and co-workers. My mom joined today and I'm really happy for her and looking forward to supporting each other on this. Two of my co-workers joined this week too, and will be going to meetings with my friend Colleen and me on Mondays. And, I have two friends thinking about signing up for online memberships. I love talking about WW and am so glad that I've helped inspire people to join. It sort of reinforced for me that I might like to look into being a meeting leader once I've hit my goal weight/lifetime member status. WW is hard work, no doubt, and frustrating at times, but I really believe in it and it's worked well for me so far, so I can't help but sing its praises!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Weight Loss is Confusing

I went to Weight Watchers today and I'm down 1.6 pounds. Yay, right? The part that's confusing is that this week should not have been a good one! I didn't even give points a thought last Tuesday when I went to the Big E and ate everything fried, dipped in chocolate, or covered in bacon that I could find. Since I definitely used all my weekly bonus points there, that meant I was all out on the second day of the week. That also meant that I went over by a point or two (or sometimes three) almost every day because I just can't forego my little after dinner treat. Granted, I did earn activity points to cover those overages, but still. And then Sunday I went to a friend's house to watch football and was parked directly in front of pizza, chips, cheese balls, and dip. And anyone who knows me knows that once something is in front of me, 9 times out of 10, it's going straight into my face. So on Sunday I stopped counting points by about 4pm.

Why then did I lose almost 2 pounds this week? And lost no weight two weeks ago when I didn't go a point over my bonus weekly and activity points? I just don't get it. I'm not complaining of course, I just wish there was a rhyme or reason to it so I could know what to expect from week to week. Does this mean that it's ok for me to splurge and go over my points here and there? I'm not so sure I want to get into the habit of that to find out the answer.

I guess all I can do is keep going as I have been. Stay within my points 5 or 6 days of the week, but don't beat myself up if I take a special occasion out with friends (and let's face it, Sunday is a special occasion during football season!) to enjoy the foods and drinks that I love.

The other thing I find confusing (well, maybe more annoying than confusing) is how, despite the fact that I've lost 13.2 pounds, which I feel is significant, I don't look or feel any different. A couple of people have said that they can see I've lost weight, but I don't know. These are all people who know I'm doing WW and trying hard to shed the pounds, so it's possible they're just trying to be encouraging. When I look in the mirror, I don't see anything different. My clothes really aren't fitting differently. Shouldn't there be a slight difference after losing almost 8% of my body weight so far? Maybe one day it'll be a sudden change that I see out of nowhere. Fingers crossed...

Next week is the next date on the goal calendar that I set for myself. 15 pounds by October 10, which will actually be October 11 because WW is closed on Columbus Day next week. That means I need to lose 1.8 pounds. It's definitely doable, but it won't be easy. I'm going to have to really be careful about the choices I make, and I'm going to have to drag myself out of bed to exercise in the mornings. I don't want to miss a goal this early in the process, so I've got to do it!